The Beginning

A few months ago I realized that I haven't actually felt happy in about a year. I've had moments or maybe even hours of happiness, but those feel rare. I don't feel that I can really even enjoy the company of the people that I am around. My job is miserable. I have very little social life anymore, and I don't have it in me to go out and make new friends. What am I to do? My prayers haven't been answered quickly enough for my liking (yes, I know I need to work on patience) and therapy doesn't seem to be helping, so I'm trying something new.

My new roommate (we've been living together for right at a month now) is a social worker, and she introduced me to a TED talk given by Dr. Brene Brown. The things that she said seemed to hit home for me. So I'm going to read her books and go through her blog and use them to work on myself. I want to be happy again. I want to feel joy, not just pretend to. I want to feel the emotions that I seem to have lost over the past year. It probably won't be easy. There may be huge gaps between posts, or this blog may be very short lived. We shall see.

I'm going to start with I Thought It Was Just Me (but it isn't). She has worksheets and stuff to accompany the book. I'll let you know my thoughts on the book and maybe even my responses to the questions on the worksheet either as I go along or when I finish.